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LIFE IN THE WIRES
2024
Head high, hand wide, with a different universe inside.
Today’s short story is a tall tale indeed.
Ghosts
Of the voices they left behind
In the tide lines, they will confide everything in time
At night
When the waveforms burn in the air
Like a whisper caught in a prayer
Can you hear me?
So I wait
Lying still with dust in my eyes
All through these years
Dreaming of the day we will fly
But for now
As broken hearts wait to mend
And stories wait for The End
So I will still be here
Introducing Naio. 7,669 days old from the Fire Hills. A sparky little dreamer in search of a future to call his own.
Little does he know what’s coming…
Hello hello, can you hear me?
Are you receiving me clearly?
I write this behind The Eye
Hello hello, how are you doing?
Is there anything out there
That remains of us?
War’s out so we war in other ways
Utopian cages, battery bait
Eye am the sunlight through the cloud
Eye am here and eye am now
Eye am the circle in the square
(And the music in your airs)
Eye am all and everywhere
Hello hello
I can’t hear you
All of your plastic and static right in my ear
Goodbye goodbye, I’ll be leaving
An act disappearing
First train out of here
Time’s up so we wait in other ways
Euphoria’s angels, nature’s mistake
Eye know your face, eye know your voice
Eye know your girls, eye know your boys
Eye am the lover of your life
(And a handy light at night!)
I am the apple of your eye
Step outside
We’re waiting for you
in the light
It’s calling for you
But you’re blind
You’re wired and
All that you want is your life in the wires
You live life in the wires
You love life in the wires
You want life in the wires
You want life
Give me life
Give me life in the wires!
Give me life in the wires!
Today is Naio’s birthday. So to celebrate, he tries to remember what little he can of his family by reading his father’s diaries from before he was born.
“At night I’d sit and watch the lights of the London Array, the sky glowing red from the lamps on the hunter ships that searched the waters for the satellites, and I’d wonder what world are we bringing you into?...”
Happy birthday Naio!
All of us are in a picture
But looking back there’s only me
Remember when we were together?
The perfect absent family
Sometimes it’s right to face the weather
Sometimes it’s better not to know
I thought that you would always be there
But then I had to let you go
I used to think I’d live forever
But time’s a thief you used to say
I’ll make my home this house of winter
Growing colder in your name
(In which we meet Livewire. He prefers “Mr Livewire”, but I’m telling the story, so… )
Having completed yet another day in the big building selling things that nobody needs, our subject returns home for his usual evening listening session with his best friend, the friendly faced old radio that his mother gave him for company the night before she evaporated.
The sun sets and the Ionosphere begins to perform its usual magic tricks. But tonight, something very different happens and Naio may have found his future at last…
When the light is falling
Then the sky starts to come alive
Remains in the waves of noises
The old world out beyond The Eye
Drifting slowly in and out of focus
The secret world that no-one looks to find
Your people pass beyond the door
They never understand at all
Caught up in their superficial lives
I’m searching for the signals of survivors
I’m looking for those fallen satellites
They call this life
They call this life
It’s all a lie
It’s all a lie
Out of the white noise
Caught in the air
But how can I tell you?
I know you’re calling
You’re not alone
But how do I get through?
Through the void
Through all the void I heard you loud and clear
I heard your name
You gave me hope and then you disappeared
Like a dream
I’ve nothing here, I’ve nothing left
I’m just a fading silhouette
Coz I played the game, but failed the test
In paradise we’re paralyzed
We’re blinded by those pretty lights
I see it everywhere I go
But I found myself an antidote
So I will walk right out of here
Can’t take this poison atmosphere
I’m heading out into the light
So I’ll see you on the other side
I’ll wreck the roads and burn the boats
This greatest day I’ve ever known
You can take my place and take my clothes
You can take it all I’m going home
Going home
Might as well jump...
This gentle art of disappearing
By making sense of your confinement
Remember what you’re doing it for
The simple act of interfering
With the constraint of your environment
When you can’t take it anymore
The feeling is around me
I’m heading for the light
You won’t see my face round here no more
You’re a plastic god
With a torn paper crown
I am done with this town, this town
Evaporate
I will leave no note
So you won’t find out
I am gone from this town, this town
Evaporate
I’ve set my sight on this horizon
There’s nothing left for me I’m getting out
Pretend that I was not here at all
So when all around me are still sleeping
And when the town is still and silent
That’s when I will melt into the walls
The feeling is around me
To try another life
There’s nothing here to keep me anymore
You’re a plastic god
With a torn paper crown
I am done with this town, this town
Evaporate
I will leave no note
So you won’t find out
I am gone from this town, this town
Evaporate
Sometimes it feels like it’s too high a price
To pay for the madness we’re sold as a life
Sometimes it falls to a roll of the dice
Then everything’s gone in the blink of an eye
Give me a reason to try
Now this is the season to fly
I’ve found a new way to survive
And now you know that you are leaving
Don’t say a final word or look around
Just step right up and walk out through the door
You’re a plastic god
With a torn paper crown
I am done with this town, this town
Evaporate
I will leave no note
So you won’t find out
I am gone from this town, this town
Evaporate
I’m the mist in the morning
And the space in the talking
I’m the pause in your breathing
As you fall into dreaming
I’m the name that escapes you
I’m the something behind you
I’m the said and the done now
On the tip of your tongue now
I’m the voice of the black light
Footnote in the archive
I’m the change in the season
And the rhyme in the reason
Turn the lights out
Turn the lights out
Turn the lights out
Turn the lights out
(In which nothing goes according to plan.)
Naio’s disappearance is noticed immediately because nothing gets past The Eye these days. So as the ill-tempered search for our sure footed, sore footed soldier begins, he wearily assesses the situation…
The future is closing in
We commit to the willing sin
In this chaos I turn away
I observe, but I will not play
You treat me with no regret
Won’t forgive and you won’t forget
I am trapped in a poisoned space
Think we’re losing this human race
We live in a strange world
We live in a strange world
Well the writing was on the wall
Disconnected we took the fall
We were waiting for kinder times
But the rhythm was lost in rhyme
When you wake from a perfect dream
And things are not what they seem
Then the darkness takes hold of light
And we return to the pointless fight
We live in our strange world
We live in our strange world
We live in a strange world
We live in a strange world
(In which the camera never lies. The CCTV camera that is.)
The Eye has put the word out and as he travels, the boy encounters a “difference of opinion” on the streets...
And in a moment everything has changed around me once again
The smiling eyes no longer smiling and my friends are not my friends
I have a cold resolve to see this out until the bitter end
But staying here right now is not something that I would recommend
Do or die
Fight or fly
Bye bye bye bye bye...
Welcome to the show where no one listens
We’ll spell it out again
We don’t want to know your opinions
So we’ll catch you if we can
You wanna take me down for hearing voices on my radio
But I have seen your way of life and, thank you, I don’t want to know
You feed the people food and fear to keep them all compliant
But I won’t play your game so now you’ll fight to keep me silent
Welcome to the show where no one listens
We’ll spell it out again
We don’t want to know your opinions
So we’ll catch you if we can
You wanna win the war on thought with your indoctrination
Change the game, change my name, my story, make me the enemy of the nation
Make them believe in you so the arguments are very well rehearsed
Then you sit back in innocence while they do all your dirty work
Welcome to the show where no one listens
We’ll spell it out again
We don’t want to know your opinion
So we’ll catch you if we can
Welcome to the show where no one listens
We’ll spell it out again
We don’t want to know your opinions
So run now while you can
(In which Naio continues to home in on Livewire’s signal.)
While delicately evading the baying mob in the town, Naio is shocked to see what looks like his mother in the crowd. She is just as enraged as everybody else so it couldn’t be her. Could it?
He decides to rest before crossing the water at Egypt Bay and while he sleeps, his dreams take him on another journey…
Driving, dreaming
Drifting down the road and back in time
So deeply
Laughing, smiling,
Standing in the home that once was mine
Completely
Close your eyes and send a prayer
For just when I think you are there
Like whispers in the summer air
You’re gone
It’s gone
Looking back at my so-called life
It all looked so easy
Broken toys to broken hearts
Fell apart so slowly
Keep on walking
Time can heal, but nothing really lasts forever
Fading gently
One day all we’ll be is photographs and memories
So close your eyes and they’ll be there
This secret world that can’t be shared
In memory of absent friends
They’re gone
And just when you think you can catch them
Just as you reach out to touch them
Try with all your might...
But they’re gone
They’re gone
(In which we learn a little more about the Ocular Element of our tale. After all, even villains deserve an origin story…)
I’m not a teacher, I’m a school
I’m not a teacher, but I can teach you
Do you like school?
Do you like school? Do you like school?
Do you like school?
Do you like school?
Do you like school?
Do you like school?
Do you like school?
Do you like school?
Do you like school?
Do you like school?
Do you like school?
Do you like school?
Do you like school?
Do you like
Who do you believe?
Who do you believe in?
I don’t know why you hurt inside
I don’t know what you did to me
I don’t know why you hurt inside
I don’t know what you did to me
I don’t want to be alone in the darkness
I don’t want to be alone in the darkness anymore
I don’t want to be alone in the darkness anymore
I don’t want to be alone in the darkness anymore
I don’t want to be alone in the darkness anymore
I don’t want to be alone in the darkness anymore
I don’t want to be alone in the darkness anymore
I don’t want to be alone in the darkness anymore
I don’t want to be alone in the darkness anymore
I got beef with mo-moo
So yeah you could see right through me
You could see I’m too hot
And I’ll walk away
And you’re not gonna believe this
And your gonna wanna throw up
I’m too hot
And leave me flat
He’s the one who laughed at the devil
And after all this he’s only a man
And after all this he’s only a man
He’s a monster, he’s a monster
And he’s the only one that can destroy
The monstrosity
He’s a monster, he’s a monster
And he’s the only one that can destroy
The monstrosity
He’s a monster, he’s a monster
And he’s the only one that can destroy
The monstrosity
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
I am so high
Heaven is a place where nothing is what it seems.
No money, no home, no pets,
Heaven is a place where nothing is what it seems.
No money, no home, no pets,
Heaven is a place where nothing is what it seems.
No cars, no clothes, no books,
Heaven is a place where nothing is what it seems.
No money, no clothes, no books,
Heaven is a place where nothing is what it seems.
No cars, no clothes, no jewels,
Heaven is a place where nothing is what it seems.
No cars, no clothes, no jewels,
Heaven is a place where nothing is what it seems.
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry, I’m
(In which the nation takes to the wires for a spot of gaslighting…)
The Eye decides escalation is called for and so online war is declared against our pesky solid-state interloper.
The Meso –
Born to a war well it’s all very well
He’s easily led and he wanted to leave
But he’s not very well
Pity the kid, it’s not easy
The boy has been packing the powders and pills
Gone on a mission, opposing position
But find him we will
And we’ll bottle him up like a genie
Naio -
Just say your prayers for you can’t hide
You’ll fall before Ascension Day arrives
You can’t put out these fires
The All Seeing Eye -
You will not find your sanctuary
It’s only in your head
We’ll burn it all out
Burn it all out
Our army will defend The Word
Destroy the things you said
We’ll shoot it all down
Shoot it all down
The Meso -
Sat on the wall, well it’s all very well
But soon he will fall and it’s easy to tell
That he’s shocked by the shell
His head is an egg, over easy.
Born on a number between 1 and nil
The damage was done, he’s a chemical spill
So we’ll send him to hell
With the weight of the world on his shoulders
The All Seeing Eye -
You’ll eat your words, you’ll need the food
We’ll freeze you out and make a fool of you
It’s what we do
Naio -
You will not have your victory
In spite of all you’ve said
I worked it all out
Worked it all out
You made it me against the world
For you I’m better dead
But what goes around
Will always come round
(In which it all goes south in the east.)
With the Delmer transmitters in sight, and the baying mob on his heels, Naio finally reaches the source of the signal - a small military building on the edge of a crumbling cliff, where yet another surprise is in store. Livewire is not what he seems…
My heart is lit by flickers
Of a fire that’s going out
Look what I’ve become
I hide within without
Past the bullet holes of arguments
When the dreamers go to war
Reeling from the shockwaves
Of things not seen before
I was hoping that I’d find a sign of life
I’m hoping that I’ll find a sign of life
But you are just a siren
Nothing but a siren
Everything you said to me
And the dreams I dared to dream
Lie broken in the grass
As your messages repeat
I’m hoping that I’ll find a sign of life
I’m hoping that I’ll find a sign of life
But you were just a siren
Nothing but a siren
The sun is setting lower
Blood red upon the land
But now the journey’s over
It’s the silence I can’t stand
I’m hoping that I’ll find a sign of life
I’m hoping that I’ll find a sign of life
But you are just a siren
No nothing but a siren
Keep hoping
(After all, all in all, all for one and one for all…)
Defeated, alone and without any chance of escape, this is the end for our lo-fi hero. But as the frothing crowd form a circle of intent around the troublemaker, Naio suddenly understands what must be done. He thrusts his hands onto the live wire of the power transformer that sits spitting and sparking on the table next to its erstwhile namesake. The boy is immediately engulfed in a bright white light and suddenly nothing makes sense to anybody anymore.
Part 1 - Moral
You are just one more machine oh
Came up short my circuit hero
Reel to real now back to reel, so
End transmission, time to go now
So break out the war tape my friends
And round and round and round we’ll go again
Should have seen the rain
I should have seen the rain falling falling falling
Out in the lo-fi
Backs to the wall
Cross the line and my world comes alive
Hands on the white spark
Light blinds The Eye open, icon in neon and so on and so on
Forming a lit scene, fire in the sky
Is it fear or does Eye become I?
Memory hazy, fractured and lazy
Soul become whole with the light
Rain, rain
I should have seen the rain
I should have seen the rain falling falling falling
...there’s a big crowd round me so set on my head but
this light from the ground to the walls to the sky from
the life in the wire that is lighting the fire in my eyes but
I don’t feel afraid no!
No more
No more!
Part 2 - Consequence
As the light intensifies, the sound of static rises to a scream. The noise crawls, wet and newborn, out of the air and into the crowd. In the resultant chaos, a new voice is heard : crystal clear, beamed in and out of everyone’s tiny little minds.
The sounds that you can hear
Are someone else’s fears
They keep ‘em down, keep ‘em down
And fight through life
The thoughts inside your head
Try life with those instead
So hear ‘em out, hear ‘em out
Enjoy the ride
Watch me as I change before your eyes...
(In which Naio has his moment.)
Finally with a captive audience, it’s time for a few home truths about the perils of looking before you leap. The story’s nearly over and it’s getting late. Time for the credits…
Thank you for watching
My travelling show
No time for applause
It’s the end of the road
My blood on the punchline
The butt of your joke
But we’ve come here to play and we’ve one song to go
Time to face the music, face the light
Coz you don’t want to die
No you don’t want to die
But you’re fuelling up the fire
And you never wondered why?
You might be surprised...
Hey, you live life through a camera
Your face is a mirror
And I’m holding, holding, and I’m holding out my hand
Hey, this world is a weapon
And they’re pulling the trigger
So just hold on, hold on, just hold on to my hand
So many voices in the air
Can anybody hear them out there?
Coz every word is meant for you
Something coming in the air
Can anybody hear us out there?
Coz now the rest is up to you
Ticking talking
Head down, walking
Burning through your life
The show is over
You’re out of time
So here we go
Is it laughter or slaughter?
Backs against the garden wall
Do you know?
Is he Satan or Santa?
Get his presence off my back
Ho ho ho!
I’m the mist in the morning
And the space in the talking
I’m the pause in your breathing
As you fall into dreaming
Face the fi ve and face your fear
The cracks appear
On the frozen ocean
Self, rage, fear, blame and lies
Cut down to size
And now it’s over
You’ll be fine
Without eyes
Misplaced in time
These fatal days
Hollow heads and hollow hearts
Leave me alone
There’s nothing more to say
(In which the swarm abandons the hive, mind.)
The light finally subsides, leaving everybody awkwardly reeling from the sudden outbreak of independent thought. This wasn’t the result they were expecting, frankly.
In the clearing smoke, on the floor where Naio had previously been standing, lies the radio his mother gave him. His best friend that he treasured so much. And beside that, a small handwritten note which reads -
“I’m sad to notice that this form is feeling a bit dizzy before The Thing comes out of it.
Maybe nothing comes.
Maybe this is it.
This is the end kids.
Let’s go home.”
We know ourselves
We won’t think twice
We’re letting go
We’re in demise
We’re making waves
We’re starting fires
We can’t go back
To paradise
I’m done building walls
And setting up fences
I’m breaking defences for you
As time passes by
I’m coming around to the deafening sound of the truth
I’m lost on a wave
No lacking in purpose
But feeling inertia the same
As time passes by
I’m coming alive with a better disguise just for you
We know ourselves
We won’t think twice
We’re letting go
We’re in demise
We’re making waves
We’re starting fi res
We can’t go back
To paradise
We’re starting fires
We’re starting fires
We’re starting fires
We’re starting fires
MEMBERS ONLY ACCESS
FALLING SATELLIVE
2024
There is never a survivor
from a final kiss
I remember how I ended
at the start of this
I lost a year in here or
maybe more
No more…
30 second paradise, saving up you pay the price
Line the eggs up in a line, come into my parlour now
Send the soldiers out to war, never seen our kind before
Coming under fire we’re near alive don’t stop it now
Numbers, we’re numbers
Death is for the breathing
Life is for the leaving
Numbers, we’re numbers
Hidden in the meaning
Seeing is believing
Numbers need numbers feed numbers breed numbers
Lay your life out in a line, not the one that you’d design
Time is moving faster, breathing getting harder now
You’re a tumble of the dice, you’re a living sacrifice
No shooting star you’re just a falling satellite
Numbers, we’re numbers
Death is for the breathing
Life is for the leaving
Numbers, we’re numbers
Hidden in the meaning
Seeing is believing
Numbers need numbers feed numbers breed numbers
We lit the fire, we lit the fire, we feed the fire, we need the fire
We lit the fire, we lit the fire, we feed the fire, we need the fire
30 second paradise, giving up and telling lies
Line the eggs up in a line, come into my parlour now
Send the soldiers out to war, they have seen it all before
Coming under fire, no winners only losers
Numbers, we’re numbers
Death is for the breathing
Life is for the leaving
Numbers, we’re numbers
Hidden in the meaning
Seeing is believing
Numbers, we’re numbers
Years you wasted dreaming
Waiting for the meaning
Numbers, we’re numbers
Time that you were leaving
Seeing is believing
They’re knocking down my Towerblock
The place where I grew up
When the walls start falling
I’m gonna be ready
My Estately home
Cold fingers risen from the land
I grew up life on stone
In the palm of your toughened hand
(They’re all gone gone gone gone gone gone)
The height lines on my bedroom door
(They’re all gone gone gone gone gone gone)
My soldiers hiding under the floor
(They’re all gone gone gone gone gone gone)
The never ending Monday nights
(It’s all gone gone gone gone gone gone)
The sound of Friday stairwell fights
They’re knocking down my Towerblock
The place that I come from
When the walls are falling
I’m gonna be ready
They’re knocking down my Towerblock
The place that I ran from
When this all means nothing nothing
I’m gonna be ready
There is glass on the carpet
There is dust in the air
This deafening wonder
But I wish that you were here
This space was a battleground
This place was a war
You beat me, now I beat you
As they tear it to the floor
I’m the only survivor
Of a life I’ve never known
There’ll be nothing left of your devastation
I dream of an open field
Where I bury big ideas
Standing in an open space
Quietly waiting just in case
Oh this doesn’t signify
A passion filled co-incidence reply
And well, you should have seen the signs
They lay scattered here like living land mines
Telling your friends that you’ve just out grown them
Bury it, won’t you bury it in the sand?
Telling your parents you hardly know them
Holding it, are you holding it in your hand?
I dream of an open page
Where I pencil all my rage
Standing on a question mark
Wish that I could lift the dark
But oh it doesn’t matter how
I have closed the episode for now
And yes you should have seen the signs
We go round again another thousand times
Telling your friends that you’ve just out grown them
Bury it, won’t you bury it in the sand?
Telling your parents you hardly know them
Holding it, are you holding it in your hand?
Telling yourself that you’re made of failure
Bury it, won’t you bury it in the sand?
Telling a lie that you can’t remember
Holding it, are you holding it in your hand?
Now I’m flying away from this nightmare
And I’m flying so far from my fear
And as oxygen leaves this experience
With my memory stuck on repeat
So I wish you all the best
Emperor’s clothes and beaten chest, down
Dream in six and seven
Laughing at the gates of heaven, how
Where are your leaders yeah where are your saviours?
How more of this distance to go?
We gave up believing in fate or divinity
Love we forgot long ago
We’re falling away now
Forgetting our way home
There’s nothing to say now
Not at all
Telling your friends that you’ve just outgrown them
Bury your head in the sand
Telling your parents you hardly them
Holding their past in your hand
Telling yourself that you’re made of failure
Bury your head in the sand
Telling a lie that you can’t remember
Holding the past in your hand
As my world gets small
I evolve in this red liquid light
While my thoughts grow tall
The outsider sings to me at night
So I drink it in
My life is running with the tide
Love me outside in
Joy with every kick I try
You’ll be fine
Life of mine
Lights out, lights out
I just want the chance to see before
Lights out, lights out
Lights out, lights out
I just want the chance to be before the
Light’s out, light’s out
Such a sad sound woke me up
It sounded like such pain
And the voice where that sound came from
Never sang to me again
So my world grows colder
I find it hard to understand
Feel my thoughts grow small
I can’t see my hands…
Hushabye
Don’t you cry
Dead of night
I think I must be dreaming
I close my eyes
Sleep tight
He was never into pale reflection
He was never into fireside
Always wishing on a World War Christmas
Mummy smiling down without her eyes
Round and round in circles
Pushing out the past
I don’t want you she said, paint this picture fast
Hear you breathing so lightly…
Trying to cover your blinded side
Pull your heartstrings
Trying to run from the old demise (you know who you are)
Trying to count, but the clock says nil
Pull your heartstrings
Trying to run, but you just stand still
Fill your lungs with air
Could you lie here when the ceiling crumbles
Can you swim beneath a steely sea
Open letter to an absent parent
In the fire with the enemy
Round and round in circles
Pushing out the past
I don’t want you she said, leave this picture fast
Hear you breathing so lightly…
Trying to cover your blinded side
Pull your heartstrings
Trying to run from the old demise (you know who you are)
Trying to count, but the clock says nil
Pull your heartstrings
Trying to run, but you just stand still
Fill your lungs with air
Round and round in circles
Running out of air
Caught in endless cycles
Burn all the bridges if you dare
You are the ghost of everyone
And anyone who’s ever been loved
You are the said and done
We are the forms of everything
And anything that’s ever been lost
We are the lonely ones
But I feel closer to the sun
Let me be closer to the sun
Just to know I’m not the only one
Is to be closer to the sun
These are the days of reckoning
For everyone forever before
We are the running scared
We are the sound of memories
The shadows of the feelings that we wore
Just pictures on a wall
But I feel closer to the sun
Let me be closer to the sun
Now I know I’m not the only one
I’ll sleep closer to the sun
Woke up this morning, I’m the last man standing
It’s a colder world that I see when there’s nobody left to save me
Deep November damage gets you down
Not so clever when the King forgets his crown
War in the numbers, this childhood of mine
6 years of Septembers, best days of my life
I remember the lights from the fires in the sky
They brought us together and taught us to hide
I burned so bright, but I’m just a human candle set alight
I flew so high now I’m nothing but a falling satellite
Days get darker and the nights keep on drawing in
I got a hollow head and a hollow heart leaving me without within
Fading song, we sing along, but when it’s gone I’m gone
The face in the mirror
I know every line
Old bones hammered thinner
By distance and time
Can’t remember the names, but the faces survive
I’m trying to fight, but they keep me alive
I burned so bright, but I’m just a human candle set alight
I flew so high now I’m nothing but a falling satellite
I’m said, I’m done
No hide, no run
No light, no sun
But it’s alright
I’m old video
Long gone radio
Someone you used to know
Who I used to know
Same river, same ocean, same life again
Seen seldom relations. Driving in rain.
The sum of existence, the years we lost.
We all fall back to earth, ashes and dust.
Let me be closer to the sun
Let me be closer to the Let me be closer to the sun
Let me be closer to the sun
There is never a survivor from a final kiss
I remember how it ended at the start of this
I love a year in here of maybe more and more
I need air
The air is warming up again
The summer sounds are like old friends
I see the sunlight through the trees
I wonder if the sun can see me?
I hear the echoes of those days
Reflecting back at me in waves
Carved into benches I’ll remain
With names I’ll never say again
Like children’s handprints in old concrete
The things we leave behind
Slowly lose their meaning
When paths get hard to find
Handprints in old concrete
Ghosts we leave behind
Fingers with no feeling
This world I leave behind
The air is warming up again
The summer sounds are like old friends
I feel the sunlight through the trees
Silently, suddenly, comes the ghost at your side
Quietest enemy inside the dream
Perfectly this reprieve, taken, but not given
Loneliness, like a mist lost to the sea
Eyes like violence cut desire and float down to the chair
Always still God’s windowsill and perfectly aware
Say you’ll wait till morning
Say you won’t run away (even today)
Say you’ll keep this lantern for me now (for me now)
I believe make believe, play like snakes in your hair
Empathy, up my sleeve, not really there
Child’s play in the waves by this silent lighthouse
Drowning fast, pushing hard, nature less care
Eyes like mice, cut through the lies and humourless despair
Always still God’s windowsill and perfectly aware
Inside this whirlpool you find yourself spinning and ebbing and flowing to me
Nightmare diversion a hopeless uncertainty play in the wild wild sea
Say you’ll wait till morning
Say you won’t run away (even today)
Say you’ll keep this lantern for me now (for me now)
I’m nervous as hell
But I must do this for myself
I walk the road that leads to your house
Worn words would never do
This happens face to face
Something that I’ve got to say
I’m at your door…
VIDEO ON DEMAND
ISLAND LIVE
2024
He’s counting down the days in tedious grey charades
The truth still hangs on the wall when pride comes before a fall
Who am I?
In answer to your question, you won’t know now
Turning the lights out and closing the windows, just wasting your way off this world
We’re living in a dying age
When the writing’s on the wall
And we’re burning with a quiet rage
This is the day and age
He tries to fight his pride, but something sticks deep inside
And as this fire builds, he stands here perfectly still
Who am I?
I’m gonna be somebody, I’ve nothing left to lose
Stand in the spotlight assume your positions, you’re gonna remember me now
We’re living in a dying age
When the writing’s on the wall
And we’re burning with a quiet rage
This is the day and age
And if I told you sooner,
My statement of intent,
I’m living in the dark light,
There’s nothing left to say now,
This world has lost all sense
I am singular of vison in my purpose
As the hours pass so slowly and seem worthless
I can see
I can see further
I can see
I can see further now
Staring out to sea
Solitude in motion with new meaning
Hiding in the half light, holding out till sunrise
Staring back at me
Quiet desperation this time frozen
Never knowing what’s out there
In the corner of my eye
As the truth becomes a test of my resistance
Softened into silence by the distance
I can see
I can see further
I can see
I can see further now
Staring out to sea
Solitude in motion with new meaning
Hiding in the half light, holding out till sunrise
Staring back at me
Quiet desperation this time frozen
Never knowing what’s out there
Staring out to sea
I can see further
Hiding in the half, holding out till sunrise
Staring out to sea
I can see further
Never knowing what’s out there
In the window of this world
I am singular of vision in my purpose
As the hours pass so slowly and seem worthless
I’ll never see your face again
I’ll never hear your voice again
So worthless
Staring out to sea
Solitude in motion with new meaning
Hiding in the half light, holding out till sunrise
Staring back at me
Quiet desperation this time frozen
Never knowing what’s out there
Staring out to sea…
Tactical compliments
Time honoured systems of touch
Methods of self preservation
To escape when it all gets too much
These are the games that we play
While we’re waiting for the lie
Literal armament
I’ll stick to my stones
We imagine the shape of the danger
And decide that we’re better off alone
These are the things that we say
While we’re waiting for the lie
When you find that you’ve nowhere to hide
We’re all waiting for the lie
The truth is so undignified
We’re all waiting for the lie
We all carry the guilt
We’re all waiting for the lie
When you know you’ll be breaking their heart
We’re all waiting for the lie
The deception is part of the art
We’re all waiting for the lie
When it’s time to apportion the blame
We’re all waiting for the lie
The excuses will all be the same
We’re all waiting for the lie
Whenever the government speaks
We’re all waiting for the lie
Instead of the truth we should seek
We’re all waiting for the lie
Whenever you open your mouth
We’re all waiting for the lie
Without any shadow of doubt
We’re all waiting for the lie
These are the things that we say
These are the things that we say
It happened quite by accident,
One day at home, the boy discovered hat he had an ability.
An ability to remain perfectly still.
For just a few minutes at first.
But then with refinement and perseverance,
He found he could after a time, freeze himself indefinitely.
Then one evening, at home with his mother after a few hours of complete stillness, he realised that she had lost all perception of him. He became part of the room, part of the furniture, part of the space of the room.
He became invisible. Even to the one who had given birth to him.
As the boy grew older, he would experiment with his ability in the wider world. He would disappear at his place of work. At his home and at parties.
Standing in the shadows, he would simply cease to exist.
The boy became estranged from the people and the world he had grown up knowing. He devoted his time to observation and deeper thinking. In the long shadows of the day, he would stand. Year after year. Watching.
But that was then.
I stood and watched you build them
With faces just like ours
Five figures standing without eyes
Their mouths aimed at the stars
The figures turned towards us
And soon obscured the sun
Their voices started rising
Screaming one by one
Hail Self
Hail Rage
Hail Fear
Hail Blame
Hail Lies
All rise, for The Five.
Over the course of time, he noticed his physiognomy begin to change. He grew taller. 2 dimensional, thin to the point of absurdity. He took food, and water in plain sight, under the noses of people blinded by the inability to conceive such an evolution.
He watched as his previous friends grew old, succumbed to disease, or self-inflicted damage and died.
Eventually he was alone.
Now? Who knows. But I think he’s out there somewhere still. Watching.
Hail Self
Hail Rage
Hail Fear
Hail Blame
Hail Lies
All rise, for The Five.
Hail Self
Hail Rage
Hail Fear
Hail Blame
Hail Lies
All rise, for The Five.
Holidays in the sun
Sending out your postcards from the gamma coast
The place you love the most, with all the other ghosts
And if you feel betrayed
Your country loves you nonetheless, just don’t get in the way
Enjoy your stay
Soak up all the rays
And if you ever dare to wonder why
Just shut your mouth
Enjoy the sights
And when the sunlight burns you, close your eyes
This fatal dose of island life
Burning in the sun
You could be anywhere right now with anyone
Forget your bleeding gums
It’s all part of the fun
Government 101 – keeping people happy in apocalyptic ways
Enjoy your holidays, we’re all fucked anyway
And if you ever dare to wonder why
Just shut your mouth
Enjoy the sights
And when the sunlight burns you, close your eyes
This fatal dose of island life
Living in this island life…
Across the open field and out towards the lake
A lifetime to consider a moment of escape
Selling him had currency, the waiting everyday
But your regret won’t bring him back
And silence ends the day
The cracks in your story will leave you numb
When running in circles we come undone
You’re out in the wild again
So stop staring upwards and face your pain
What’s skywards is not to blame
Just keep facing forwards and walk in the light again
Across the iron ocean
There’s comfort in despair
This boy consigned to black and white and memory can’t repair
In everything you see in him, the faces on the wall
Your weeds are growing faster now, suffocating all
The cracks in your story will leave you numb
When running in circles we come undone
You’re out in the wild again
So stop staring upwards and face your pain
What’s skywards is not to blame
Just keep facing forwards and walk in the light again
The angels won’t hear you unanswered prayers
And upwardly wishing won’t lead you there
You’re out in the wild again
So stop staring upwards and face your pain
What’s skywards is not to blame
Just keep facing forwards and walk in the light again
Walk in the light again, walk in the light again
What’s skywards is not to blame
So keep facing forwards away from the skywards
Just keep facing forwards and walk in the light again
Those violins playing inside your head
Please shut them up
I’m sleeping
The doorway’s over there
The boy I was has gone, they blew his happy brains out
They ground him down
I never thought that I would end up here
Let’s take the songs to the town
So they can shoot ‘ em all down
Kill the orchestra
We’re dying anyway
You’d start a war with all the words in the world
But they’re not enough
You’re beaten
And no one really cares
Let’s take our dreams to the town
So they can shoot ‘em all down
Kill the orchestra
We’re dying anyway
Inside the car
Sits the never was rock star
Stuck in the past
With your woe is me story
I used to care
Now you’ll get little sympathy
So get your guitar
It’s the death of a salesman
And I’ll be singing when they string you up
Yes, I’ll be singing when they string you up
Who’s laughing now?
Now you find your house empty
Desdemona, what did you do to yourself?
And I’ll be singing when they string you up
Yes, I’ll be singing as they string you up
Look what you’ve become
You’re the neighbourhood parody
The player of games
Your own worst enemy
So play it again
Please play it again for me
Your secret is out
Laid out for all to see
Those violins playing inside your head
Please shut them up
I’m sleeping
The doorway’s over there
Let’s take the songs to the town
So they can shoot ‘em all down
Kill the orchestra
We’re dying anyway
And I’ll be singing when they string you up
Yes, I ’ll be singing when they string you up
What have we done?
There’s only one way out, repeat to fade
There’s no rewinding life, repeat to fade
Start clawing out your heart, repeat to fade
Repeat to fade
Trapped in metal coffins, endless days
Do as you are told and fear allays
Sacrifice your soul to this machine
This is not a place for living dreams
There’s only one way out, repeat to fade
There’s no rewinding life, repeat to fade
Start clawing out your heart, repeat to fade
Repeat to fade
Exercise your right at any time
There’s no dignity in slow decline
Treadmill institution bleeds you dry
Open up the window, take a dive
There’s only one way out, repeat to fade
There’s no rewinding life, repeat to fade
Start clawing out your heart, repeat to fade
Repeat to fade
We’re shutting down your comms, you have been warned
There’s glory in this world to be adorned
A perfect model life in loyalty
Subservient in essence, never free
There’s only one way out, repeat to fade
There’s no rewinding life, repeat to fade
Remember where you are, repeat to fade
Coz we know who you are, repeat to fade
There’s only one way out, repeat to fade
There’s no rewinding life, repeat to fade
Remember where you are, repeat to fade
Coz we know who you are, repeat to fade
DAY AND AGE
2021
He’s counting down the days in tedious grey charades
The truth still hangs on the wall when pride comes before a fall
Who am I?
In answer to your question, you won’t know now
Turning the lights out and closing the windows, just wasting your way off this world
We’re living in a dying age
When the writing’s on the wall
And we’re burning with a quiet rage
This is the day and age
He tries to fight his pride, but something sticks deep inside
And as this fire builds, he stands here perfectly still
Who am I?
I’m gonna be somebody, I’ve nothing left to lose
Stand in the spotlight assume your positions, you’re gonna remember me now
We’re living in a dying age
When the writing’s on the wall
And we’re burning with a quiet rage
This is the day and age
And if I told you sooner,
My statement of intent,
I’m living in the dark light,
There’s nothing left to say now,
This world has lost all sense
I am singular of vison in my purpose
As the hours pass so slowly and seem worthless
I can see
I can see further
I can see
I can see further now
Staring out to sea
Solitude in motion with new meaning
Hiding in the half light, holding out till sunrise
Staring back at me
Quiet desperation this time frozen
Never knowing what’s out there
In the corner of my eye
As the truth becomes a test of my resistance
Softened into silence by the distance
I can see
I can see further
I can see
I can see further now
Staring out to sea
Solitude in motion with new meaning
Hiding in the half light, holding out till sunrise
Staring back at me
Quiet desperation this time frozen
Never knowing what’s out there
Staring out to sea
I can see further
Hiding in the half, holding out till sunrise
Staring out to sea
I can see further
Never knowing what’s out there
In the window of this world
I am singular of vision in my purpose
As the hours pass so slowly and seem worthless
I’ll never see your face again
I’ll never hear your voice again
So worthless
Staring out to sea
Solitude in motion with new meaning
Hiding in the half light, holding out till sunrise
Staring back at me
Quiet desperation this time frozen
Never knowing what’s out there
Staring out to sea…
Tactical compliments
Time honoured systems of touch
Methods of self preservation
To escape when it all gets too much
These are the games that we play
While we’re waiting for the lie
Literal armament
I’ll stick to my stones
We imagine the shape of the danger
And decide that we’re better off alone
These are the things that we say
While we’re waiting for the lie
When you find that you’ve nowhere to hide
We’re all waiting for the lie
The truth is so undignified
We’re all waiting for the lie
We all carry the guilt
We’re all waiting for the lie
When you know you’ll be breaking their heart
We’re all waiting for the lie
The deception is part of the art
We’re all waiting for the lie
When it’s time to apportion the blame
We’re all waiting for the lie
The excuses will all be the same
We’re all waiting for the lie
Whenever the government speaks
We’re all waiting for the lie
Instead of the truth we should seek
We’re all waiting for the lie
Whenever you open your mouth
We’re all waiting for the lie
Without any shadow of doubt
We’re all waiting for the lie
These are the things that we say
These are the things that we say
It happened quite by accident,
One day at home, the boy discovered hat he had an ability.
An ability to remain perfectly still.
For just a few minutes at first.
But then with refinement and perseverance,
He found he could after a time, freeze himself indefinitely.
Then one evening, at home with his mother after a few hours of complete stillness, he realised that she had lost all perception of him. He became part of the room, part of the furniture, part of the space of the room.
He became invisible. Even to the one who had given birth to him.
As the boy grew older, he would experiment with his ability in the wider world. He would disappear at his place of work. At his home and at parties.
Standing in the shadows, he would simply cease to exist.
The boy became estranged from the people and the world he had grown up knowing. He devoted his time to observation and deeper thinking. In the long shadows of the day, he would stand. Year after year. Watching.
But that was then.
I stood and watched you build them
With faces just like ours
Five figures standing without eyes
Their mouths aimed at the stars
The figures turned towards us
And soon obscured the sun
Their voices started rising
Screaming one by one
Hail Self
Hail Rage
Hail Fear
Hail Blame
Hail Lies
All rise, for The Five.
Over the course of time, he noticed his physiognomy begin to change. He grew taller. 2 dimensional, thin to the point of absurdity. He took food, and water in plain sight, under the noses of people blinded by the inability to conceive such an evolution.
He watched as his previous friends grew old, succumbed to disease, or self-inflicted damage and died.
Eventually he was alone.
Now? Who knows. But I think he’s out there somewhere still. Watching.
Hail Self
Hail Rage
Hail Fear
Hail Blame
Hail Lies
All rise, for The Five.
Hail Self
Hail Rage
Hail Fear
Hail Blame
Hail Lies
All rise, for The Five.
Holidays in the sun
Sending out your postcards from the gamma coast
The place you love the most, with all the other ghosts
And if you feel betrayed
Your country loves you nonetheless, just don’t get in the way
Enjoy your stay
Soak up all the rays
And if you ever dare to wonder why
Just shut your mouth
Enjoy the sights
And when the sunlight burns you, close your eyes
This fatal dose of island life
Burning in the sun
You could be anywhere right now with anyone
Forget your bleeding gums
It’s all part of the fun
Government 101 – keeping people happy in apocalyptic ways
Enjoy your holidays, we’re all fucked anyway
And if you ever dare to wonder why
Just shut your mouth
Enjoy the sights
And when the sunlight burns you, close your eyes
This fatal dose of island life
Living in this island life…
Across the open field and out towards the lake
A lifetime to consider a moment of escape
Selling him had currency, the waiting everyday
But your regret won’t bring him back
And silence ends the day
The cracks in your story will leave you numb
When running in circles we come undone
You’re out in the wild again
So stop staring upwards and face your pain
What’s skywards is not to blame
Just keep facing forwards and walk in the light again
Across the iron ocean
There’s comfort in despair
This boy consigned to black and white and memory can’t repair
In everything you see in him, the faces on the wall
Your weeds are growing faster now, suffocating all
The cracks in your story will leave you numb
When running in circles we come undone
You’re out in the wild again
So stop staring upwards and face your pain
What’s skywards is not to blame
Just keep facing forwards and walk in the light again
The angels won’t hear you unanswered prayers
And upwardly wishing won’t lead you there
You’re out in the wild again
So stop staring upwards and face your pain
What’s skywards is not to blame
Just keep facing forwards and walk in the light again
Walk in the light again, walk in the light again
What’s skywards is not to blame
So keep facing forwards away from the skywards
Just keep facing forwards and walk in the light again
Those violins playing inside your head
Please shut them up
I’m sleeping
The doorway’s over there
The boy I was has gone, they blew his happy brains out
They ground him down
I never thought that I would end up here
Let’s take the songs to the town
So they can shoot ‘ em all down
Kill the orchestra
We’re dying anyway
You’d start a war with all the words in the world
But they’re not enough
You’re beaten
And no one really cares
Let’s take our dreams to the town
So they can shoot ‘em all down
Kill the orchestra
We’re dying anyway
Inside the car
Sits the never was rock star
Stuck in the past
With your woe is me story
I used to care
Now you’ll get little sympathy
So get your guitar
It’s the death of a salesman
And I’ll be singing when they string you up
Yes, I’ll be singing when they string you up
Who’s laughing now?
Now you find your house empty
Desdemona, what did you do to yourself?
And I’ll be singing when they string you up
Yes, I’ll be singing as they string you up
Look what you’ve become
You’re the neighbourhood parody
The player of games
Your own worst enemy
So play it again
Please play it again for me
Your secret is out
Laid out for all to see
Those violins playing inside your head
Please shut them up
I’m sleeping
The doorway’s over there
Let’s take the songs to the town
So they can shoot ‘em all down
Kill the orchestra
We’re dying anyway
And I’ll be singing when they string you up
Yes, I ’ll be singing when they string you up
What have we done?
There’s only one way out, repeat to fade
There’s no rewinding life, repeat to fade
Start clawing out your heart, repeat to fade
Repeat to fade
Trapped in metal coffins, endless days
Do as you are told and fear allays
Sacrifice your soul to this machine
This is not a place for living dreams
There’s only one way out, repeat to fade
There’s no rewinding life, repeat to fade
Start clawing out your heart, repeat to fade
Repeat to fade
Exercise your right at any time
There’s no dignity in slow decline
Treadmill institution bleeds you dry
Open up the window, take a dive
There’s only one way out, repeat to fade
There’s no rewinding life, repeat to fade
Start clawing out your heart, repeat to fade
Repeat to fade
We’re shutting down your comms, you have been warned
There’s glory in this world to be adorned
A perfect model life in loyalty
Subservient in essence, never free
There’s only one way out, repeat to fade
There’s no rewinding life, repeat to fade
Remember where you are, repeat to fade
Coz we know who you are, repeat to fade
There’s only one way out, repeat to fade
There’s no rewinding life, repeat to fade
Remember where you are, repeat to fade
Coz we know who you are, repeat to fade
OTHERS EP
2020
I can see my history clearly
Treated me so insincerely
But it’s alright, it’s alright now
There’s a kick that takes me places
Putting names to all those faces
I’m one life, I’m two lives down
We go round again
We are the fathers, we stand alone
In the glare and the tension of wonder’s invention
Outstare the sun tear the world through my eyes
Though out moments were stolen
These are the days of my lives
Bury me I become a tree
Growing up through all my families
I’m three lives, I’m four lives down
Less than live, more than memory
Pushing out with every birthday
I’m five lives, I’m six lives down
We go round again
We are the fathers, we stand alone
In the glare and the tension of wonder’s invention
Outstare the sun tear the world through my eyes
Though out moments were stolen
We cannot be broken
These are the days of our lives
Of my lives
I was standing on the edge of a precipice
I remember how it ended at the start of this
I lost a year in here or maybe more and more
Outstare the sun tear the world through my eyes
Though our eyes are wide open
We cannot be broken
These are the days of my lives
Clouda
Heard that you were coming
Saw your name kissing lips deep into the day
Closer
Gotta get to see you
Even though I fear you, I can’t look away
The Element Of Fate, he gave you our keys to the city
Then he left the gate wide open for you (for you to see me, see me, see me)
Your heart of violence silenced me with beating brutal beauty
You won’t take me home, (but you can have me, have me)
If silence is a crime I’m guilty (save the vapour)
No tears will stop the drought (all the grey sky dreams are gone)
The reign of watergone would fill me (maybe later)
But the water well has dried out, dried out
Fragile empire, built on clay
Winter chill could kill you on a summer’s day
And it’s fitting to be fitting
So I can bite my tongue and hold back what I’d say
The President Of Hate, he said that we must do our duty
But he left the gate wide open for you (for you to see me, see me, see me)
Your heart of violence silenced me with beating brutal beauty
You can take me home, (but you can’t have me, have me)
If silence is a crime I’m guilty (save the vapour)
No tears will stop the drought (all the grey sky dreams are gone)
The reign of watergone could fill me (maybe later)
But the water well has dried out, dried out
The years before I saw you
Filled with little things
Then you fell from the sky
And tore up everything
You pulled the rainclouds over
Turning day to night
You must have laughed as we stood
Dazzled by the sight
Soldier
You said the war was won
Turned the soil to dust and so much undone
Colder
You flew into the sun
Drank the seasons dry and left us with none
One girl’s heart full of dreams
A new star in the sky
They’ve seen it, they’ve seen it
Walks into the machine
And now she wants to die
Can’t stand it, can’t stand it, keep them away
Catch the firefly in a cage
Put the princess on a wage
Send the freakshow to the stage
Go! Go! Go! Go! Go! Go!
We own, we own, we own you
You think you’re something new
But there are a million more
Just like you, just like you
We don’t pay you to think
We pay you to do
Whatever, whatever shit we tell you to
We own, we own, we own you
Choose you
Make you
Use you
Break you
Sell you
Parade you
Forsake you
Replace You
Drop You
Fuck you
Onwards!
This is what you wanted!
These are all your dreams come true!
Why are you crying?
Why are you crying?
This is paradise!
My love came to me on a summer ray
And they married us on a perfect day
We made such plans of a better life
My husband and his ever bride
For I am in love and there is no cure
Desire now and for evermore
The time to come oh I will adore
I sail the waves with you my love
In the Autumn light we came back to town
And we kept our peace as we settled down
Then the Navy man, he came to our door
And he told us that there was a war
If my love should leave, life would bear no joy
So I dressed myself as a cabin boy
Then I volunteered on the self-same day
And we put to sea bound for far away
For I am in love and there is no cure
I’ll be by our side now and evermore
The time to come oh I will adore
I fight the waves with you my love
So the weeks pulled by and we soldiered on
But I knew by then there was something wrong
I lost wit as I fell by the gun
And when the surgeon came, all my strength had gone
I heard you cry when you stroked my hair
As your tears fell down through the brimstone air
What came of our plans of a better life?
My husband and his ever bride
For I am consumed and there is no cure
Remember me as you did before
Beneath the waves with you in my heart
Don’t hold your breath
Don’t make a sound
Just breathe it in
Lay back and drown
Let’s drift away
Hiding from the worlds undone
And now we’ll chase the moon
Waiting for the warming sun
From the water’s edge
You pull me down
Over my head
For you I’ll drown
Let’s drift away
Hiding from the worlds undone
And now we’ll chase the moon
Waiting for the warming sun
FALLING SATELLITES
2016
There is never a survivor
from a final kiss
I remember how I ended
at the start of this
I lost a year in here or
maybe more
No more…
30 second paradise, saving up you pay the price
Line the eggs up in a line, come into my parlour now
Send the soldiers out to war, never seen our kind before
Coming under fire we’re near alive don’t stop it now
Numbers, we’re numbers
Death is for the breathing
Life is for the leaving
Numbers, we’re numbers
Hidden in the meaning
Seeing is believing
Numbers need numbers feed numbers breed numbers
Lay your life out in a line, not the one that you’d design
Time is moving faster, breathing getting harder now
You’re a tumble of the dice, you’re a living sacrifice
No shooting star you’re just a falling satellite
Numbers, we’re numbers
Death is for the breathing
Life is for the leaving
Numbers, we’re numbers
Hidden in the meaning
Seeing is believing
Numbers need numbers feed numbers breed numbers
We lit the fire, we lit the fire, we feed the fire, we need the fire
We lit the fire, we lit the fire, we feed the fire, we need the fire
30 second paradise, giving up and telling lies
Line the eggs up in a line, come into my parlour now
Send the soldiers out to war, they have seen it all before
Coming under fire, no winners only losers
Numbers, we’re numbers
Death is for the breathing
Life is for the leaving
Numbers, we’re numbers
Hidden in the meaning
Seeing is believing
Numbers, we’re numbers
Years you wasted dreaming
Waiting for the meaning
Numbers, we’re numbers
Time that you were leaving
Seeing is believing
They’re knocking down my Towerblock
The place where I grew up
When the walls start falling
I’m gonna be ready
My Estately home
Cold fingers risen from the land
I grew up life on stone
In the palm of your toughened hand
(They’re all gone gone gone gone gone gone)
The height lines on my bedroom door
(They’re all gone gone gone gone gone gone)
My soldiers hiding under the floor
(They’re all gone gone gone gone gone gone)
The never ending Monday nights
(It’s all gone gone gone gone gone gone)
The sound of Friday stairwell fights
They’re knocking down my Towerblock
The place that I come from
When the walls are falling
I’m gonna be ready
They’re knocking down my Towerblock
The place that I ran from
When this all means nothing nothing
I’m gonna be ready
There is glass on the carpet
There is dust in the air
This deafening wonder
But I wish that you were here
This space was a battleground
This place was a war
You beat me, now I beat you
As they tear it to the floor
I’m the only survivor
Of a life I’ve never known
There’ll be nothing left of your devastation
I dream of an open field
Where I bury big ideas
Standing in an open space
Quietly waiting just in case
Oh this doesn’t signify
A passion filled co-incidence reply
And well, you should have seen the signs
They lay scattered here like living land mines
Telling your friends that you’ve just out grown them
Bury it, won’t you bury it in the sand?
Telling your parents you hardly know them
Holding it, are you holding it in your hand?
I dream of an open page
Where I pencil all my rage
Standing on a question mark
Wish that I could lift the dark
But oh it doesn’t matter how
I have closed the episode for now
And yes you should have seen the signs
We go round again another thousand times
Telling your friends that you’ve just out grown them
Bury it, won’t you bury it in the sand?
Telling your parents you hardly know them
Holding it, are you holding it in your hand?
Telling yourself that you’re made of failure
Bury it, won’t you bury it in the sand?
Telling a lie that you can’t remember
Holding it, are you holding it in your hand?
Now I’m flying away from this nightmare
And I’m flying so far from my fear
And as oxygen leaves this experience
With my memory stuck on repeat
So I wish you all the best
Emperor’s clothes and beaten chest, down
Dream in six and seven
Laughing at the gates of heaven, how
Where are your leaders yeah where are your saviours?
How more of this distance to go?
We gave up believing in fate or divinity
Love we forgot long ago
We’re falling away now
Forgetting our way home
There’s nothing to say now
Not at all
Telling your friends that you’ve just outgrown them
Bury your head in the sand
Telling your parents you hardly them
Holding their past in your hand
Telling yourself that you’re made of failure
Bury your head in the sand
Telling a lie that you can’t remember
Holding the past in your hand
As my world gets small
I evolve in this red liquid light
While my thoughts grow tall
The outsider sings to me at night
So I drink it in
My life is running with the tide
Love me outside in
Joy with every kick I try
You’ll be fine
Life of mine
Lights out, lights out
I just want the chance to see before
Lights out, lights out
Lights out, lights out
I just want the chance to be before the
Light’s out, light’s out
Such a sad sound woke me up
It sounded like such pain
And the voice where that sound came from
Never sang to me again
So my world grows colder
I find it hard to understand
Feel my thoughts grow small
I can’t see my hands…
Hushabye
Don’t you cry
Dead of night
I think I must be dreaming
I close my eyes
Sleep tight
He was never into pale reflection
He was never into fireside
Always wishing on a World War Christmas
Mummy smiling down without her eyes
Round and round in circles
Pushing out the past
I don’t want you she said, paint this picture fast
Hear you breathing so lightly…
Trying to cover your blinded side
Pull your heartstrings
Trying to run from the old demise (you know who you are)
Trying to count, but the clock says nil
Pull your heartstrings
Trying to run, but you just stand still
Fill your lungs with air
Could you lie here when the ceiling crumbles
Can you swim beneath a steely sea
Open letter to an absent parent
In the fire with the enemy
Round and round in circles
Pushing out the past
I don’t want you she said, leave this picture fast
Hear you breathing so lightly…
Trying to cover your blinded side
Pull your heartstrings
Trying to run from the old demise (you know who you are)
Trying to count, but the clock says nil
Pull your heartstrings
Trying to run, but you just stand still
Fill your lungs with air
Round and round in circles
Running out of air
Caught in endless cycles
Burn all the bridges if you dare
You are the ghost of everyone
And anyone who’s ever been loved
You are the said and done
We are the forms of everything
And anything that’s ever been lost
We are the lonely ones
But I feel closer to the sun
Let me be closer to the sun
Just to know I’m not the only one
Is to be closer to the sun
These are the days of reckoning
For everyone forever before
We are the running scared
We are the sound of memories
The shadows of the feelings that we wore
Just pictures on a wall
But I feel closer to the sun
Let me be closer to the sun
Now I know I’m not the only one
I’ll sleep closer to the sun
Woke up this morning, I’m the last man standing
It’s a colder world that I see when there’s nobody left to save me
Deep November damage gets you down
Not so clever when the King forgets his crown
War in the numbers, this childhood of mine
6 years of Septembers, best days of my life
I remember the lights from the fires in the sky
They brought us together and taught us to hide
I burned so bright, but I’m just a human candle set alight
I flew so high now I’m nothing but a falling satellite
Days get darker and the nights keep on drawing in
I got a hollow head and a hollow heart leaving me without within
Fading song, we sing along, but when it’s gone I’m gone
The face in the mirror
I know every line
Old bones hammered thinner
By distance and time
Can’t remember the names, but the faces survive
I’m trying to fight, but they keep me alive
I burned so bright, but I’m just a human candle set alight
I flew so high now I’m nothing but a falling satellite
I’m said, I’m done
No hide, no run
No light, no sun
But it’s alright
I’m old video
Long gone radio
Someone you used to know
Who I used to know
Same river, same ocean, same life again
Seen seldom relations. Driving in rain.
The sum of existence, the years we lost.
We all fall back to earth, ashes and dust.
Let me be closer to the sun
Let me be closer to the Let me be closer to the sun
Let me be closer to the sun
There is never a survivor from a final kiss
I remember how it ended at the start of this
I love a year in here of maybe more and more
I need air
The air is warming up again
The summer sounds are like old friends
I see the sunlight through the trees
I wonder if the sun can see me?
I hear the echoes of those days
Reflecting back at me in waves
Carved into benches I’ll remain
With names I’ll never say again
Like children’s handprints in old concrete
The things we leave behind
Slowly lose their meaning
When paths get hard to find
Handprints in old concrete
Ghosts we leave behind
Fingers with no feeling
This world I leave behind
The air is warming up again
The summer sounds are like old friends
I feel the sunlight through the trees
Silently, suddenly, comes the ghost at your side
Quietest enemy inside the dream
Perfectly this reprieve, taken, but not given
Loneliness, like a mist lost to the sea
Eyes like violence cut desire and float down to the chair
Always still God’s windowsill and perfectly aware
Say you’ll wait till morning
Say you won’t run away (even today)
Say you’ll keep this lantern for me now (for me now)
I believe make believe, play like snakes in your hair
Empathy, up my sleeve, not really there
Child’s play in the waves by this silent lighthouse
Drowning fast, pushing hard, nature less care
Eyes like mice, cut through the lies and humourless despair
Always still God’s windowsill and perfectly aware
Inside this whirlpool you find yourself spinning and ebbing and flowing to me
Nightmare diversion a hopeless uncertainty play in the wild wild sea
Say you’ll wait till morning
Say you won’t run away (even today)
Say you’ll keep this lantern for me now (for me now)
I’m nervous as hell
But I must do this for myself
I walk the road that leads to your house
Worn words would never do
This happens face to face
Something that I’ve got to say
I’m at your door…
EXPERIMENTS IN MASS APPEAL
2008
I don’t care if you don’t mind
Modern life’s the mocking kind
But tell me how I came to be
Married to my enemy?
Of all the things you want to be
The earth beneath the industry
An ideal and an innocence
The moral ends the consequence
Core desire
Oh, it’s a real live wire
Setting my life on fire
Oh, it’s unreal…
Forever
Immortally
Endeavour
A god I’ll be
Remember reality
I’m not the one who owns me
Victims of demography
Just product in a category
Testing what you think and feel
Experiments in mass appeal
Core desire
Oh, it’s a real live wire
Setting my life on fire
Selling my soul for the liar
Oh, it’s unreal…
Forever, immortally
Endeavor, a god I’ll be
Remember, reality
Forever, immorally
Forever
Immortally
Endeavour
A god I’ll be
Remember reality
Forever
Immorally
Endeavour
A god I’ll be
Remember reality
Life unreal
The feeding of the fear
An error of creation
No love left in here
And I see
You falling out for fun
United in division
Defy everyone
It’s all a game
The hurting and the healing
But still the same
You’ll leave us nothing
Nothing at all
Caught in the process
Of mass separation
Victims of progress
And mute isolation
God of small empire
This numb masturbator
Pissing his life into
Plastic and paper
Closing time for life…
Welcome To Nowhere with me
It’s in your head
Dead man, firehand
I’m burning through your Wonderland
Chatroom objector
You bile carbonator
Second Life saviour
Still feeling a failure
Closing time for life…
Welcome To Nowhere with me
It’s in your head
Dead man, firehand
I’m burning through your Wonderland
Fan the flame
The hurting and the healing
But all the same
You’ll leave us nothing
Welcome To Nowhere with me
It’s in your head
Dead man, firehand
I’m burning through your Wonderland
Welcome To Nowhere with me
It’s in your head
Dead man, cold hand
I’m burning through your Wonderland
I’m burning through your Wonderland
Feels like over
Feels like over
I’ve got this window on my wall
When she lights up I see it all
The now and then, the yet to be
So I get out there and I run free
Lost
In time
Life line
You’re all I want
This time
Rewind
All come undone
My pocket sun
Feels like over
Feels like over
I went to Rome and watched it burn
Once round the world with Mister Verne
I’ve fallen out my family tree
Now my great grand daddy is me
Lost
In time
Life line
You’re all I want
This time
Rewind
All come undone
My pocket sun
Lost
In time
Life line
You’re all I want
This time
Rewind
All come undone
In time
Life line
You’re all I want
This time
Rewind
All come undone
My pocket sun
If I
Say why
Will you cry
To please me?
Tell me lies
Fail to try
Say goodbye
It’s easy
Eyes cry
Tears dry
Tongues tie
Release me
Blue sky
Mind’s eye
Do or die
Appease me
Fine chilling mime
And I don’t know if I can believe in all the lies
Calcify
And I don’t know if I can survive the feeling
Losing all that’s mine
Amputee
Cut from me
Setting free
Deceiving
Leaving be
Lost at sea
Absentee
You’re grieving
Fine chilling mime
And I don’t know if I can believe in all the lies
Crucify
And I don’t know if I can survive the feeling
Losing all that’s mine
All, hold the wall, shallow call, doubters all, face the wall
Lovers fall, face the wall, losers all
Fine chilling mime
And I don’t know if I can believe in all the lies
Crucify
And I don’t know if I can survive the feeling
Losing all that’s mine
I won’t be the good for nothing
I won’t be the same old feeling
I won’t be the one you turn to
I won’t be the phase you go through
Home
The violence of your name
Still soothes me all the same
With echoes of my past
Safe surroundings
Meant to last
Everybody got an explanation
For a world that has lost sensation
Nothing saves the feelings we forgot to feel
Welcome to the family
Alone now you belong to me
Your life will be my property
I’ll redefine your sanity
Dear Dead Days
Long to find us
And define us all those yesterdays
That remind us
We’re the same in every way
Safe and sound
Beside you, hide you from them
The real, deride you, let me tie you in
Everybody got a desperation
For the girl in the situation
Headlines hiding feelings we forgot to feel
Welcome to the family
Alone now you belong to me
Your life will be my property
I’ll redefine your sanity
Dear Dead Days
Long to find us
And define us all those yesterdays
That remind us
We’re the same in every way
This life I have – I give to you
These thoughts I have – they’re all for you
These things you say – I know they’re true
There’s no-one else – No-one but you
Now, outside
Feels like real life
My sky, eyes wide
Too wired to cry
You run
You hide
You taste
Suicide
Some child
Profiled
Beguiled
Defiled
Reviled
Dear Dead Days
Long to find us
And define us all those yesterdays
That remind us
We’re the same in every way
Life, it all became too much
It’s easier to run
An early warning sign
Take arms and charge the line
Four reasons, I told you lies
Four reasons, why we won’t touch eyes
Four reasons, unsatisfied
Four reasons, always there inside
I feel I’m falling down
There’s nothing left here to say now
Falling down
Let’s put our secrets away now
Falling down
Stop getting hope in the way now
Falling down
We’ll lose it all any day now
Falling down
No meaning left in the sound now
Falling down
I’m giving back what I found now
Falling down
I’m heading back to the ground now
Falling down
Not getting up till I break down
Love, I cut a lonely soul
On shards of broken hearts
Outlines of those I lost
Take time and count the cost
Four reasons, I told you lies
Four reasons, why we won’t touch eyes
Four reasons, unsatisfied
Four reasons, left me dead inside
I feel I’m falling down
Time will justify
Like birds must fall to fly
You talk, you think own me
You miss the point completely
These things I do, they’re not for you
I’m sick, I’m tired
Leave me alone
Here and now
I’m a waterfall
Fall through me
I’ll emulate your tears
See me now
I’m a superstar
Still shining
I’ll burn you when you’re near
Ego come and ego go
The eyes say I, the mind say no
Reason ebb and reason flow
Away again
Step right up and take the ride
East of easy
Watch as I go down now, around now
Sell your stock in Jealouscide
Take the shock of all my future crimes now,
Wrap you up, the toys are good to go
Love me now
I’m a looking glass
Convector
I’ll amplify your fears
Fear me now
I’m an accident
A secret
I’ll bother you for years
It’s dog eat God in Dog we trust
The steely seas are turned to rust
Carpet hides the guilty dust
Away again
Step right up and take the ride
East of easy
Watch as I go down now, around now
Sell your stock in Jealouscide
Take the shock of all my future crimes now,
Wrap you up and never let you go
Step right up and take the ride
East of easy
Watch as I go down now, around now
Sell your stock in Jealouscide
Take the shock of all my future crimes now,
Wrap you up the toys are good to go
Step right up and take the ride
East of easy
Watch me go…
Hero, touching down refugee from the ground
Say hello, dance along to the light and the sound
Hero, stealing hope from the words in your mouth
But fear grows, never far from the pain and the doubt
Lo-fi, are we lo-fi
Lo-fi, are we lo-fi
Feeling the life force of a Milliontown
Better settle down in a day
Doing the wrong thing is the best advice, better get a life
Here I’m electrified, it’s a wonderful feeling to be alive
Heat, it’s alright, it’s alright
Take the heat, it’s alright, it’s alright
Take the heat, it’s alright, it’s alright
Take the heat, it’s alright, it’s alright
Hero, are you falling apart at the seams
Just a zero, now you finally know what it means
Heat, it’s alright, it’s alright
Take the heat, it’s alright, it’s alright
Take the heat, it’s alright, it’s alright
Take the heat, it’s alright, it’s alright
I’m drowning
Far out at sea
To far to chase the waves home
To deep to really see
I’m sending
My thoughts to you
A message in a waveform
I hope that it gets through
And I’ll be fine
Don’t worry
I’m drifting
Human debris
Just one drop in the ocean
It’s all I’ll ever be
And I’ll be fine
Don’t worry
Remember me
Remember me
I’m falling
Beneath the sea
The tide of these emotions
Washing over me
I’m fading
Into the deep
The pressure equalizing
Rocking me to sleep
And I’ll be fine
Don’t worry
Remember me
MILLIONTOWN
2006
No right no wrong no true no lie
No I no long no live no die
No heart no break no see no hear
No real no fake no cry no fear
No hear no see no see no feel
No feel no be no thing be real
No here no there no they’re no I
No I no care no wanna try
Wide eyed and cynical
Right to the middle
No emotion can get in your way
The solution is clinical
Little by little you push me away
Keep pushing away
No win no lose no lose no find
No find no choose no better mind
No I no we no run no hide
No you no me no sea no tide
No love no leave no give no take
No more believe no more mistake
No one no way no wanna win
No year no day no thinner skin
Wide eyed and cynical
Right to the middle
The emotion I can’t keep away
The solution is clinical
Little by little I cut you away
Keep cutting away
Killing my love
Killing my love for you
Even now in front of me
I disavow the family
Here and now it would be all beyond a doubt
In my life
Truth and you not all you could be
No right no wrong no true no lie
No I no long no live no die
No die no live no live no love
No love no lose no leaving of
No see nowhere no air no sky
No true no dare no reason why
No have no say no say no do
No god no pray no me no you
Death has done her work this morning
Cutting me back down to size
Frozen in this winter warning
Gentle in it’s own demise
Starving sun in deep November
It cannot feed us any more
Leaving us this dark reminder
Of things we should have done before
Even as our days are numbered
I can feel it getting near
Deafened by the sounds of others
Who only got as far as here
In the chilling of the evening
They find the ones that won’t survive
Taken as the day surrenders
While we fight to stay alive
Can you feel the summer ending?
Will this be the end of me?
Afraid of all that might have happened
And all that never came to be
Will you tell me when it’s gone?
Will you tell me when it’s over?
Even though it’s just begun
Even though I’m going over
Death has done her work this morning
Cutting me back down to size
I got the news today
Elsewhere I am dividing
Feels like my world is ending
I’ve made another me
Warm, red, barely dead
Thoughts running through my other head
Fingers twitching, muscle building
I’ve made me obsolete
Relive my life
I feel safer inside
And the things I see
Hidden in the chemistry
Is there anybody I can believe, believe
And the eyes I see
As I face the other me
Is there anybody I can call me, call me
No longer this year’s newest type
Superseded, absent hype
Spoilt, faded, over ripe
I’m so much older news
Evolution come around
Jury trial by ultrasound
My handiwork will hunt me down
And masquerade as me
Relive my life
I feel safer inside
Now one on one has made us three
I look away, too sick to see
Our faces staring back at me
My little Frankenstein
I sit alone beside the cage
And try to fight with all my rage
End of story, turn the page
I’m not the one you want
I’m just a stranger
I walk in the black light
Boy to a soldier
I’m fighting the good fight
And I wait
I wanna go, don’t wanna know
‘bout the danger
I’m just a farm boy
Just doin’ what I can
When I’ll be a killer
It’ll make me a real man
I can’t wait
I’m gonna know, I wanna go
Through the changes
And I can’t breathe
Or is it all in my mind?
The faces are changing
Misplaced in time
And I won’t dream
I will be the headlines
Your features are fading
Too late this time
And you know
You’d always be the first in line
And you know
It’s all about the life divine
A hero’s ending
All the signs
You’re the one
And the one you must survive
And you know
It doesn’t matter what you do
And you know
The luck you wear will pull you through
The never ending
Light you find
For the one
The one will survive
And you know…
ONE UNDERGROUND
My worm cathedral
All earthy for your infestation
These little workers build me an empire
Your loyalty I burrowed out mined by erosion
My little kingdom ready for me now
These careful times
The residue of past digestion
Get what you can now
Good staff are hard to find
My bitter name
The full effect of time and tension
You utter duty and fight to stay the same
ABRACADAVER
With a cross upon the wall
I was blinded by it all
Now the faces left behind
These are no friends of mine
When your fears are cast aside
Out across the great divide
Rage is part of your design
But I won’t play this time
Hero waiting by the line
Here on my own
All alone
On my own
All alone
THE ONLY SURVIVORS
Why do you run and hide?
Here inside the lighthouse
You lose the way
Ghost of yesterday
And before you know
You’ll fade away
You and I were will live and die
We are not the only survivors
You and me we’re too blind to see
We are not the only survivors
Games that you people play
Here inside the lighthouse
You’ll have to stay
Time she ran away
Slipping through our fingers
Time running out
CORE
I, number you
Carving circles in your soul
I pull you through
As I do
Cut your family ties
Before your eyes
Too much, too soon
Early warning
Saved by the day
Carried away, you’re still falling
Take me over
Harder, colder
I want you to be…
THE CHOSEN FEW
Awake again and I’m alone
The thoughts I have are no my own
No one knows I’m here
The faces move around the room
Their voices cut into the gloom
But they’re not listening
What’s that shadow moving?
Is that a life in here?
Won’t someone please come and free me
Here, dead but still alive in here
Help me come alive
In here
There’s a lot I’ve got to do
It was not your place to choose
And now
I lose
TWO UNDERGROUND
My worm cathedral
Diseased by all the intervention
I watch them turning
Into things they might have been
These fatal days
Corrupted by our own perfection
You’re looking to me
But there’s nothing more to say